Wild Woman, why reclaim it now?

Wild Woman, why reclaim it now?

I had a powerful vision while following the audio Yin/Yang meditation I have recorded on my website that helps us to see how our inner masculine and feminine is balanced or imbalanced. (I offer the audio meditation as a free gift for signing up for my newsletter at http://intuneholistics.com).

This particular vision is what has been called a Metta vision, not just a personal account of my own masculine and feminine but a vision of how the masculine and feminine energy is manifesting in our world. In this vision I saw the masculine (yang) he was building his empire as symbolized by a giant pyramid. He was creating and accomplishing many things, technology, science, he felt capable and strong. He was on purpose, on a mission to manifest his masculine energy in the world. He stood at the top of a pyramid and I felt him in his power of accomplishment.  He stood there absorbed in the power of himself. The masculine power is the power of “I” and pure presence and consciousness.

Then in his power he felt emptiness, as if something was missing. It was love and enjoyment  that were missing. He looked around himself to fine his feminine (yin) counterpart lying on a marble bench, in a lazy dream-like state, she was asleep. He went over to her and he woke her up, he reached out his hand with a smile and she took it. He led her to the pyramid, where she marveled at his creation. Together in the pyramid she became overwhelmed with enjoyment and pleasure, her energy stirred him, the feminine Shakti energy, the flow of life, and they began a cosmic dance that intensified as her love and enjoyment spread to his awareness. They began to spiral around and around each other with greater speed and force, like a tornado they created a powerful vortex of movement. As the power of their spiral dance peaked the walls of the pyramid began to open like the opening of a giant flower. The pyramid opened to the ground.

The man and woman grew taller and taller like giants with giant feet, arm in arm they began to walk all over the earth, massaging and blessing Gaia with the soles of their feet and with the magical gift of their balanced energy. They walked all over the earth and up to the North Pole. They entered the earth at the pole and went into the core where the pulse at the heart of the earth resonated with balance and began to change frequency and influenced all of the electromagnetic field of the earth.

Upon asking my higher self, why women, why now? The answer I got was this: This tai chi dance of yin and yang is always at play. Yin and yang are inseparable; one is unable to exist without the other. We are always flowing from yin to yang and back to yin, constantly finding equilibrium like a boat rocking on the waves. In our history feminine or yin has given its power , out of love to the masculine so the masculine could find its power.  In doing this she knew it meant a loss of her power, oppression, suppression, abuse and control, imprisonment, enslavement and exploitation but such is the immensity of the love of creation, of life.

Now the pendulum swings the other way, in our present time women are awakening to their true essence, the flow of Shakti within. It’s not the kind of empowerment that comes when women gain equality with men in the masculine illusion of power,(self-serving,  egotistical, accumulation of status and material wealth) but a different kind of equality that is complimentary. This is helping to create unity consciousness. The values of sharing, cooperation, love and enjoyment, honor and respect for all life, inclusion of all persons and all beings. A shift to value a common good is upon us.  

In Taoist teachings it is said there is one stream in all creation and that is the stream of life. For life to continue we need unity consciousness.

Women NOW need to heal their emotional scars and clear their energetic blocks. We do this for ourselves and for the collective consciousness of the feminine, to heal and OWN our power means enjoying our Shakti flow with the pure presence of the masculine, balancing the forces on our planet. We need each other’s support, wisdom and compassionate mirror to find our power and get it back and dance together.  

The Wild Woman Reclaimed program is a process of owning our feminine powers once again. I hope you can join us http://intuneholistics.com/wildwomanreclaimed.

The Ancestors are Calling

    If you have ever been in a sacred circle, a native ceremony such as a sweat lodge you may remember calling in the help of the directions and the direction of north in the Americas is usually associated with the gifts of wisdom from our elders and ancestors. I have been learning first hand why our connection with our ancestors is so important.
    Imagine being in a circle of women and being asked to introduce yourself by your matriname. So I would say "I am Stephanie daughter of Mary, daughter of Ethel, daughter of ........ That's as far as I can go probably because in our culture our surnames have been passed through the patriname or the passing of surnames through the father. I know that my matrilinial ancestry is Irish and that my patrilinial ancestry is Greek and I am aware that my ancestors have been "calling" me, quite literally.  In the middle of the night at two am  when I could not sleep I felt someone talking to me from inside my heart, (this has happened before in a telepathic conversation with my friend Roy). When I asked who it was the response I heard was, "We are your ancestors".  My ancestors WANT to connect with me! I tried to grasp the conversation but it fell out of my reach that time.
    On another occasion I created a ceremony, a combination of forest walk and my very own special medicine (a secret) and purposefully invited not only my ancestors but also the ancestors and spirits of the land (UBC Endowment Lands, Vancouver BC) to join and participate.  My communication with them was very clear indeed.  On my first journey through the forest while sitting on the edge of a sunny trail I had an experience of turning into a seed and then growing into a plant with all the other plants around. After walking for a while I turned towards the ocean and mountains to the north, I had a dialogue with my ancestors that made an real impression on me.  I was asking for advice about my business and about marketing as I was a little stressed at the time around making "enough money".  The advice they gave was, "Don't look to the Hungry to feed you, for the Hungry are always hungry. Look to the earth for she will always feed and support you."  I later found out that the "Hungry" was a term that the native of this land first gave to the white men who arrived here looking for gold, land, lumber and other goods, because it seemed that they where always "hungry", they always needed more, more, more and had no problem exploiting our rich lands and the locals to get they're hands on what ever they could that would make them a fortune. "The Hungry are ALWAYS Hungry".  I had to reflect on that for several months.
    The following summer I moved into a house with a backyard in Kitsilano with plenty of room and the "okay" from landlords to garden. I had my first garden since living in Vancouver for ten years.  My housemates and I where truly amazed at the abundance of food we had all summer long and are even more eager to garden again this summer and improve on all of our mistakes.  While I strive and long for a sustainable lifestyle imagined to be complete with Earthship (sustainable home), permaculture knowledge, being a steward of the land and possibly living in community, I live in the city for now and have a garden and a communal house filled with wonderful people.
    I AM studying marketing.  Sometimes it does have a shallowness to it and the way some market reveals how "money hungry" people can be. But it also seems to make sense to be able to communicate my message effectively and attract my sacred clients to live my purpose and make a living here. I find the study very interesting, and am learning to apply what I am learning.
   As a healer I like to get to the root of things. Why the feeling of lack or scarcity in the first place I ask myself . As if living in an illusion of our own victim mentality, we have been disconnected from our earth, our bodies, our instincts and our hearts and identify with the mind. Our culture places much value on logical rational thought and hasn't taught us basics of listening to our senses, our feelings or our intuition. When we operate from the mind it is easy to be brainwashed. In the process of this disconnection with our WILD selves many have fallen victim to opportunistic forces that persuade us to bow down to a money-God-system run by the "Hungry"greed that profits from it at the very apex of the pyramid. It now appears as if quite literally the earth is being ripped up from underneath us while the majority on Earth starves or suffers economic devastation.
   As soon as remember that we are Creators and that we are not victims we may gather energy. We will realize that we BELONG to the Earth and start acting like it. We can reclaim her, Our Wild Earth, our Wild Nature, our Wild Woman. So the messages of the ancestors keeps coming through to remind me what is really important about my journey here.
    On my next journey in the forest I found my self curled up inside an old hundreds of  years old stump, crying and the ancestors where there to comfort me. It was as if they where holding me in the hollow of the trunk like a baby. I couldn't help it, the sorrow and pain where just flowing and my ancestors comfort and care was very tender.  I appreciate them greatly especially as they have been making these appearances of comfort more and more lately. They held me and told me that what I was experiencing is a widespread "cultural disease".  This fear of not having enough is a disease from our culture.  When it is severe they told me it can turn into illnesses like stomach cancer and diabetes. No wonder so many Native people suffer from diabetes, it was introduced to them by white people along with sugar our introduced foods and way of life.
   I was aware that I wanted to be strong and courageous and so I squeezed out my last tears and took some deep breaths. The ancestors helped me along and told me to look for a special spot to make an offering. They where teaching me how to pray.  I walked along the forest path with the banana and chocolate bar I took as a snack.  "We remember everything you do here in the forest" they told me as I stopped for a pee, "You've peed here before remember"?  Wow I did remember and I remembered who I was with and multiple memories of peeing in that very spot seemed to flood in.
   I found a huge stump with about twenty holes in it made from wood peckers all over the tree.  I had some tobacco in a very small plastic container that was given to me by a friend I passed hiking up The Chief the summer before. I began to give offerings of my food into the little holes all over tree content to feed the spirit or the squirrels. The ancestors taught me how make an offering to the forest and pray.  I spoke my prayers with the ancestors as my witness and felt as though I was a younger person with many wise elders all around me.  I spoke from my heart and my voice shook. When I was finished they told me to hurry along so I wouldn't get cold and run out of day light, I had a long walk ahead of me.
  We spoke more on that walk.  We spoke about land and they explained to me that it was not so important to OWN land. We also discussed the semantics of the word OWN.  They said that OWNING land was not as important as BELONGING is.  They took apart the word BE and LONG.  This word was a better word to use they said, as it implies that it is a place you want to be for a long time, generations and generations.  I have always had a knowing that a place on earth where I was meant to be would call me to it and I would be called there to be a steward of the land.  The notion of owning land was spread to this land by white people.  I remember reading a reply by Chief Seattle to George Washington's wish to buy the land on the west coast. It expands on this idea of OWNing land and also tells of how the native people's ancestors and spirits live in nature, in the rivers, the trees and animals. Chief Seattle wondered what would happen the spirit of his people after the white man took over. Chief Seattle, they are still here!
  Listen here to Chief Seattle's Reply on Youtube. Enjoy.

A Spontanious Love Letter from My Inner Wild Woman

Here is a love letter I am deciding to write to myself from my inner Wild Woman, totally spontaneous and  intuitive......
Dear Stephanie,

How are you feeling dear one?Your pain feels very real and raw.It reminds me of how courageous you are to be here, moving forward with your dreams and aspirations. Life is not easy for anyone. No matter how enlightened one claims to be. I ask you to lie on your belly so you can  feel the earth mother below you. So you can feel her holding you up. She has done this all your life. Be held, nourished and comforted by this big mother of yours.  She wants nothing more that to serve your joy and happiness.The wisdom of the earth and nature are the very core of your being. You are unique in your human form. You have the ability to access all of the wisdom of nature and the universe in any moment. So much of struggle on earth is when you forget what an amazing creator you are. That forgetting is common place for many. The web of life itself listens to your hearts every desire, do not doubt this. The great Dream Weaver has the power to move mountains. So how do you access this power you ask? Remember your connection to all living things. Feel your connection. Act from your connection with all life. Move like you are connected to all life. Feel the rivers in your veins, the deep pulse of your heart, the lightness of breath, the earth under your feet pressing into you. You are IT already. Your only limit is in the mind which obeys what your culture or society has told you is possible or not. So forget the mind and you will remember who you really are. In other words it is impossible to rationalize this, open the senses, instincts, feel, tune in with your awareness to this moment. Be curious about that for a while, listen and let your divine guidance show you the way....develop openness, trust and patience and it will be told to you like a story, like a dream, you will watch it all come true.

I encourage all reading this (men and woman)to take up a paper and pen to move into silence and receive a love letter from your inner Wild Woman.  What ever you need to hear will be offered to you NOW....

Make a Nest for Love in your Heart

I have been contemplating the importance of LOVE my whole life.  In my twenties my motto was to "Follow my heart". By my late twenties I was learning how to LOVE MYSELF.  Self-love is a crucial way of being on the path of personal evolution and healing.    

Lately love has become an all-pervading 24 hour meditation.  So what does that look like?

When I wake up in the morning before even getting out of bed I make an intention for the day.  I visualize that I AM THAT (LOVE) and I see myself, feel myself being all that I need from the inside out.  I see myself glowing with light, in my power, creativity, sensuality, aligned, abundant, joyful. 

Feeling the heart center is a way to connect with love. Feeling the beating heart within and feeling appreciation for life, or something simple like my room, my new art that I created on my wall, my comfort in bed, my health, whatever I can think of that I am grateful for in that moment.  Being grateful, eventually snowballs and creates more lightness in life.

I do my practice, after a cup of tea, and perhaps a little cleaning up...which I used to dread, and complain about, a lot.  Who likes walking into a messy kitchen.  But not now, filling the dishwasher and wiping the counter is now a mediation of JOY.....I'll keep you posted on how that is going. My practice is usually either yoga, meditation, qigong and a nature excursion. 

These activities fill up my self-love tank, and make me readily available to accept others as they are to give in healing sessions or lead classes.

I remember to take the time to hug my house mates and friends and connect heart to heart.  I am open and grounded when talking to others. I suspend judgment and practice to be compassionate when people are doing things that might piss me off.  

Being loving doesn't mean you have to put up with shit though. Noooo!

Acceptance of myself in all of my ups and downs gives me "the balls" to tell people what I am really feeling, or thinking in a positive way, taking responsibility for my emotions and reactions as much as possible.  That gives everyone around me an opportunity to be real and responsible for themselves too.  This is how we learn together. 

Impatience, hastiness and hate are results of negative energy in the heart.  So having patience and slowing down from the frenetic pace of life is a great way  to grow the positive virtues of the heart. Forgiveness is also a way to heal the heart. Forgiveness of all your past hurts will heal the hate.  

Acceptance is synonymous with love.  Being present is also being available for love in every moment, for connecting to love in the present moment is connecting to the source of life.  Keeping a hawk eye on leaking energy or worrying about the past and future. Being aware of where I put my attention, into what kind of thoughts...do they perpetuate good feelings or bad feelings, am I feeding my demons or feeding my light and personal power. 

And even when afraid to remember that the only thing to fear is fear itself. I don't buy into the illusions that man and even I have created. I tune into my truth, the part of me that is pure light.  I am so much bigger that I often allow myself to be or acknowledge, so now is a time to grow into the awareness of that bigness, to spread my wings and fly! 

This all takes practice! And that is what I like to share and encourage, so to help you, I would like to share the most beneficial meditations on LOVE that I have practiced. Passed down from the Buddha is the Metta or Loving Kindness meditation and the Taoist Inner Smile Meditation.  You can find the Inner Smile Meditation on my website at: http://intuneholistics.com/links/innersmilemeditation.html

In Love, Joy and Peace!